HELP NEEDED

Ive been doing shrooms a bit recently and enjoyed myself. Great time. However, being raised in the projects, has always made me be on guard at all times. In the past I have been Robbed at gun point and lost friends from violence. That being said. I enjoy going to parks and certain locations while on any drug, but I live in NYC and I try not to let fear get in the way of my good time.

The issues I face are a heightened hearing, which maybe causing paranoia. I’m conflicted because I can’t tell if my mind is creating the dialogue or I can hear people say things such as...

“Does that guy seem a little crazy or off?”

“That guy is acting a little weird”

“Is he walking weird to you?”

“He’s giving me weird vibes”

“Did you just see that guy ”

I Want it to be known that I do listen to music on a speaker around the city cause I like my music loud. Shout out to Mac Miller. RIP! So I came to terms In my head that people are talking about me because I do attract attention to my self. But wonder how much dialogue have I created? I don’t feel this way when I’m on lsd or weed. Maybe because I’m being paranoid or I actually can hear people more. Not sure. I Also notice my music isn’t as loud as it is when I’m tripping. My ears seem to lower the sound level of the music and up the hearing volume on surroundings. Seems like fight/flight mode is constantly prioritized. Leading me to the next problem.

Eye contact.

NYC has a ton of people. And you may pass 100 people every 5 mins. And while I’m tripping. My eyes love to super focus on things. Eyes. Posters. Trees, The floor. Y’all know. So I tend not to look at people while walking. Out of fear of making people uncomfortable, as well as, not trying to look for any trouble. (Fights, Verbal fight, etc) I Try to find something To lock onto and stair at that for that block or so. But while I walk. I can’t help but hear at least one person comment about me. (Whether the music is on or off ) Everyone’s a critic I guess lol or I’m just bugging lol.

TLDR. what is y’all eye contact etiquette while tripping in public?! (NYC) Do y’all hear a lot of people talking about you while roaming the streets. Can’t tell if I’m paranoid, if so. tips for being less paranoid. Thank you