1:32a singe dose under tongue 1:37a no vitamin C sources in the house =( 1:44a things are starting to feel slightly different 1:46a found a protien drink that has vitamin c. drinking. blotter has not disolved. 1:54a shouldn't i be feeling this by now? 1:56a oh ok, erowid says 20-60 mins. reading... http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/lsd/lsd_basics.shtml 2:01a things are getting more off. going to pick out music. probably just pandora. we'll see. 2:03a installing headset drivers. why did i format my computer today? 2:05a suddenly warm. 2:12a rebooted to try and fix my headphones. no go. 2:28a fucking with my headphones availed noithing. i borrowed D's Downloading winamp. Things are definately changing. i have sudden bouts of frission and minor anxiety. 2:30a trying to install winamp is painful i cant take trying to do normal things anymore. 2:38a hollllllyyyy..shiiiitttttttt.... winamp visualization (milkdrop) prodigy invaders must die...... holllllyyy shhhhiiittt... oh yea. i can feel it now. 2:39a woah... maybe i should play MINECRAFT. im starting to care less and less about this log. i feel its only going to get more sloppy dfrom here. i will do my best. i feel

fan god damn tastik. the world could blow up around me and i would be ok with it. 2:40a ok facebook can stop now. no more notifications. gonna hide my phone under my pillow. 2:42a took me two minutes to get back from that. ok. music is ALMOST too intense, i want to tunr it off, look away, and then i want to instantly go back. 2:46a i wish i had not had a monster energy dring at 6pm, i can still feel it. the lucy does not like it being there. 2:47a decided mid song to take a music break. going exploring in my living room. also going to vape a trench from MFLB now i dont know how long it will take for me to get this

done. 248p.... 2:51a my bed is like a whole different universe. i can tell the difference between teh light coming from the monitor and from the lamp. hard to vape. 2:53a googling: how long should i wait before i take a second hit of ... probably shouldn't. 2:55a per the only good yahoo answers response i have ever read. i should wait atleast a while longer. 2:56a wait, its been an hour and half... no. ill wait until 330 before i decide on that. more trenches for now that should help calm me. 2:58a luchy in the sky with diamonds.... i get it. 2:59a it strikes me as odd that i can tell the difference between the lucy and the trenches. it is getting REAAAALY hard to type. im going to put some more music on. maybe there we go i decided to stop using timestamps every time i come to the notepad its too formal im just going to type waht i want when i want to and if i happen to note the time (likely) i wll do such. 3:01a im glad no one is trying to have a conversation with me, and that i dont have to try and have one with anyone esle. though i could see how it would be etraordinarily

intreaguing. the though occured to me i bet cam sites never get anyone riding with lucy. but then, what would there be to watch????????visuals are not apparent if i look at something long

enough it begins to fluctuate and wave i never made it intot he front of my house to explore. i dont have long left to do that so im going now. i never got to the music 3:12wow. the living room in darkness is INTENSE. ok its time for number two. this is a bad idea but im doing it anyway. no mor after this no matter what. 316 time is going so slow buty so fast. i know that makes no sense. or, i know that isnt going to make sense tomorrow. half more lucy is being absorbed. i'm having to second guess myself, but i think that if a LEO were to approach me (sitting clothed, calmly in front of a triple monitor computer) i would be able to act

coherent, probably not act sober. I want to confine myself to the chari so i can document every part of it, but then again i want to wander aimlessly in the dark maybe naked or covered in something.hnnnf. 319

im glad i decided to nevermind i dont remember what i was glad i decided to ... time. yes, im glad im not trying too hard to keep track of it. after thinking about the LEO situation i have decided that i would need this notepad or some kind of notepad to even stay somewhat on the same train of thought. and you can

see how well im doing iven with a reference right infront of my eyes.

prtien drink seems to be made of infinity. reading my log. 322 ok about my lifing room experience, the room was completely dark, but i could clearly see the chair and couches

and they were all illuminated in color.. maybe rainbows. oh god.. i saw nyancat.. the intetubes have leaked into lucyland what have i done. :D if i could capture myt face

rihght now.. oh wait i can! oh wait that is a HORRIBLE idea. :D you;'re just going to have to imagine it. i feel like i have been laughing for hours and the smile is burnt

into my face. its wonderful. 325. im going back to the cloud bed goign to turn on music and visuals don't know when i'll be back again.. still 325.... 3:38 that felt like an

eternity. its wonderful. ipad reddit porn and house classics on the headphones. milkdrop. iVape Tesla with a vivi nova. 8.0w. MFLB. this trance music's scifi quotes actually

make sense. what the fuck.. lol. 340.. back to the bed/cloud/universe/thing

1. um its good to root back to something is normal for once. i can see how people get lost in lucy. its so "REAL" everything i am looking at has its own life to it. its own

vibration. i know the movement i see isnt really occuring. but i want to believe it is. its hard to focus, i can see why some would call this anxious. i seem to need to take

"breaks" and remind myself that i am here, in my room, that to the outside observer i am just a man calmy typing away at a blue keyboard in the dark of night. 4:15p - A sudden need for order. I really want to go make myself a sandwich and a glass of milk. im not sure i can do it before he wakes up to go to work.. in 45 minutes or

so.... im going to try. i HONESTLY dont know if i will make it back in 45 minutes. hahahaha. ok bye now.. but the colors.... ok. sandwich.oh i can focus much better without

the music. brb 417.

oh dear god i forgot about this thing. 502a trying to get a sandwich, he has gone finally. can be free. going for sandwich, not looking back. 518 wow, the fact that that was

anything less than severl hours since i had last been here is amazing.

5:43 love how did you spend your 29th? seating over a dark blue keyboard into the filth of the night.

5:44: i know that as long as i dont do anything, i can not be judged to have done something.

This is the Perfect Sentance was already perfect before you thought it was perfect.

546: i feel like every moment documenting i should be spending experiencing.

547 nausia. i feel quite dizzy and burpy actually.

That strange moment when you realize there is something beautiful in the world and you want to share it with someone, and then you suddenly realize that you are that thing,

and then that you are that one. and then that moment. then. I.

622a

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6:32a 6:52a i have finally realized

7:17 i just took a picture of this log so i could remember to remember what i remembered to write. WHAT THE FUCK DID I WRITE? I will never remember exactly what i remembered

at that moment exactly as i did. and any attmept to do so just distances me further from the moment.

the sad truth is i dont know what i've become. but i want to know. and i want to love it.

all i am is an interface between me and this world. well then what am i? did i mean my body?

726 at some point i went for a walk, it was at sunrise and it was beautiful.

when what pleases my interface to this world and your interface to this world coelesce, a true thing of beauty has been found.

holy shit the captcha to create a new reddit account is IMPOSSIBLE in this state. TURING TEST?!?!?! TRIPPING TEST more like it.

733 totally_not_trippin

7:34 if my cat would jump to me right now instead of knocking over my water or tripppp

There cant ever be anything more than now. anyone who tries to tell you differently is lying. 1 1 does NOT = 0.

7:36 i cant get any 737 of this posted on reddit. please_something you are doing that too much. try again in 2 minutes. 739 how frustrating, all i want to do is share myself with the world. and now I cant beacuase im supposed to wait two minutes.

fuck that. im using tor bitches. rain drops :DDDDDDD

map props to oldskoolrave shoutcast fuuuuuccckkkkkk

7:41 its hard to believe i actually left my computer, or experienced any of the things above, but i know its possible, its capable within me, within you, within everyone to

just live.

how do i diffrentciate beteen me and you?

shit i got distracted. i'm supposed to post this before its too late.

i hope this makes it to you in time.

i found the rain drops you lost.

i had them all along.

in my heart.

share.

7:44 if LSD really is heaven, and i were to want to experience heaven all the time, what would i need to do to trip on LSD forever? Well, someone would have to make the LSD.

And someone would have to provide that person with ergot and other chemicals that i do not know. this person would have to be convinced well enough that they would cleary

disregard the possible bodily and spiritually and mentally i cant do this anymore

749a oh man the space between realities is... just as real as reality.

is it really that easy? only one way to find out...

    care to try these again? fucking capthca

jkBVRI

where am i supposed to share this on reddit? WAIT.. LSD IS LIKE META. SO META. SO VERY META.

753a why dont i want anyone to know? LSD is so fantastic, it obviosuly outweighs all the potential disasterous

i must surround myself with people who feel and beleive and BEHAVE like i do. i must contribute to this order. "just us" we can work together. this is the foundation of all

law, all religion. justice.

if i want to reasonably expect society to let me be me then I have to reasonably expect to not get in the way of anyone else. this is the foundation of all society. man i dont

know if i am ever coming back from this trip, but i feel like i have learned alot.

I have reconnected with my consiousness. I was forced to live and utilize all of my senses, incuding the ones i did not know I had. I know I am not alone. But if that were so,

then why is no one next to me?

all of this infrastructure what does it enable me to do? anything i want? life? liberty and the pursiut of what? what is it that i want? what will make me happy? I can afford

to be in any country in the world tomorrow If i needed to be. And all i choose to do is sit here alone day after day, what is wrong with me? I know that there is nothing wrong

with me just existing.

Oh it feels good to write. 803 Here are the things I like to enjoy. Seeking someone to enjoy these things as well. Love, Peace, Someone to be next to. 806

where is the line? what is it that indicates to another human being that I am or are not capable of making a rational decision? I sure hope it wasn't the reddit captcha.

Because if it was, i am totally fucked.

I somehow. 806am 7/15/2013

everything in this world has been arragnged by US, the inhabitors. the trees, the roads, the mailboxes, its all because two of us sat down and decided they both liked that

tree beign there, or they thought that road needed to be there, and then they built it. they took the things around them and they arranged them the way they thought was best. 817 i dont know who i am looking for, but if you're reading this please give me a sign. There is so much Joy in solitude. There is so much more in Shared Experience. why cant

I pick and choose my feelings? What is a feeling? a sensation? fuck. I am the system. How did that happen? I really have everything i could want in life, but for some reason i

am afraid to even try and tell anyone else about it :D How could any of that be wrong? society, what does that mean?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Society

I have nowhere i need to be today. What do i want to do? Everyone else is at work. Its not safe to drive. I am stuck here with my thoughts for now. Oh but how i long for

sobriety and sleep to take me so that i may meet with my people again. Thank you. thank you. thank you. I get it. I understand why no one should ever do LSD. It could kill

you. I hereby vow to live my life as I see fit from here on out.

wow. that was a trip. its been atleast 10 years. it was worth the risk to see the edge of reality once again. I should do this again sometime :D With people i love and trust

or maybe i can just find people to love and such.

8:30a

this experience was so wonderful, i wish i could have shared it with someone else

there is no going back my eyes have been opened. I am. and I smell. so i'm going to shower.

8:39am what can i do to make the world a better place? shower :D

9:90am wow. i keep forgetting i am tripping. I guess the real question is, does it ever end? am i like this forever? I really hope so. AWWW SHIT. I get to choose.

Is life a sentance? is life a gift? I choose. I choose gift.