Did Mother never tell you she loved you unless you were sick, hurt, or something else terrible? Mine sure didn't. My mom and I have a very complicated history which highly contributed to the intense sexual attention seeking in my childhood; I never got attention from her.

So interesting how a mother's lack of love can turn their daughter into an insatiable whore, isn't it? I don't think they anticipated turning me into an emotionally fucked up attachment monster but here I am 😉

I think it's funny how these things bend our brains to make up for lost or incomplete needs. Shame it had to be at the hands of bad men who shouldn't have spoken to a child but hey, it is what it is I guess?

My mom recently told me "don't cry, it makes me uncomfortable" and it's like years of incomplete thoughts and memories finally clicked. My mom's worse than me emotionally. She's fucked up. I wish I could show her the depths of healing I had to reach to even shake her influence off for a moment through my days. But she never will improve. My Mommy issues are transcendent.

Being the daughter (or son I'm just not a son) of an emotionally fucked up woman will always cause such a fracture in emotional processing. Yay, thanks Ma!

To all those with Mommy issues, I understand you🫶🏻