I’m tired of the paranoia that comes from the possibility of being found out. I’m tired of the moments of genitalia dysphoria. I’m tired of the attention that are both negative and positive about being trans. I’m tired of having to explain it when people find out because I don’t want them to have the wrong idea about us. I’m tired of the shots and the blood draws. I’m tired of feeling worthless because I’m stuck in limbo with my body. I’m tired of existing as a transsexual and I wish I could just be cis. I’m tired of feeling like I did something wrong and bad at my worse moments. I’m tired of feeling like I failed my child self for turning out the way I did. I’m tired of feeling like I failed. I’m tired of all of this shit but it’s never going to end.