I've questioned?/known? I'm trans (ftm) for 8 or so years. Problem is...I'm not sure if it's me stopping me, my fears stopping me or what. I'm definitely masculine but more than that I think about myself being a man all the time. I don't feel right in my body, but I worry that I'll never feel right in my body. Whether it's weight, hair, chest, body hair, facial hair...whatever it is....

I also worry that maybe I'm not trans and it's all in my head. I feel lost...8 years....therapy for the last 4 months. And im still feeling lost and scared. My therapist is great. But I'm just not sure about who I am....coming out terrifies me, the in between terrifies me, the losing people possibly terrifies me. I know being scared is normal but shouldn't I know myself well enough to know it's who I am...I think I'm also terrified I'm not really trans. What if I go through with transitioning just to find out I'm not really trans? I wish there were a medical foolproof way of diagnosing gender dysphoria and one being trans. I think some of my fears would go away and make other fears slightly better.