Maybe it was all the theater training. Maybe it was learning how to let myself dissolve into a role, become the character I was projecting to my audience. Maybe that was why putting on a comfortable outfit always helped me dissolve my anxieties and relax, or why whenever I had to wear a suit for a family affair I felt like someone was sliding a metal rod down my back. And maybe that was why when, as an in-joke, the theater department at my university did a historically-accurate performance of Antony and Cleopatra, I felt my tongue purr with every line I spoke as the last true pharaoh of Egypt, sharp-witted and more than capable of keeping pace with my Roman counterpart. I felt the power she wielded, and it was...intoxicating. Plus, I'm told I made that outfit look *very* good.

I wanted to believe it was just the strength of getting to be a lead performer. I wasn't sure, though...and when we did another the next year, Hamlet of all things, it certainly felt different. The experience of playing Ophelia, descending from eager young woman to grieving lunatic...I could feel the eyes on me. It was the attention, the ability to draw the eye...would it persist off the stage? Would I be able to recapture it somewhere else? Well, it was late October, so there would be plenty of costume parties...and plenty of time to test my theory.

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Hey there! I've got a particular theme on my mind: I want to try a feminization RP, but with the caveat that the outfit helps shape the state of mind my character's in. This would primarily be mental TF-focused, but I'm more than happy to include physical TFs at some point as well, maybe my body becoming as malleable as my mind. Wearing a Halloween costume? Enjoy seeing a very dedicated cosplayer at work! Cheerleader outfit? Peppy, pretty, and perfectly eager to please. Thick glasses and a sweater? Nerves, stammering, and perhaps a surprising kinky side. I've plenty of other kinks, but I'm open to a discussion. I want whoever might write this with me to enjoy themselves too. PMs only, please! Hope to hear from someone!