Being from a minority in a minority in a fucking minority, my life for the past 3 years has been so fucking unique that absolutely no one can understand me ever. No one can say I understand your situations, I understand your choices, I understand why you did that, or how you felt then. And I'm not talking about a single incident or a single day, I'm talking about 3 years of my life that has been lost till now, and that's going to cost my career. And it's still counting, who knows when my life will become remotely relatable.

No trans folks, no family members, no friends, nobody ever. And I just wish so badly that I'd meet someone who can atleast respect me and my choices even if they can never understand me. Coz my family, local trans folks, American trans folks surely won't understand the summary of it, without a long explanation for hours maybe.

I've waited 8 whole years to transition, and I still can't even get my top surgery. I somehow managed to get T last year. 8 years pretending to be a cis girl/woman. 15 to 23. The prime of my life gone. I know I am trans, I know what I want to do, but I can't. All I've been doing is waiting to transition, to begin a shot at life.

And the worst part is I gotta answer the question "why is there a 3 year gap in your resume? What did you do during those years?" To every employer that I may apply to in my backward-ass country India, to get a job. How the fuck am I gonna do that? Fuck me! Guess I don't deserve a normal life!