i am very scared of doing anything about my feelings in regard to maybe being transgender. i am a very logical and planning person so i never do any thing before thinking hard.

in hebrew the word you has 2 forms, male and female. i always feel more comfortable reading it in the female form, even though im physically a male. i feel soothed and calmer when someone addresss me as a female, it used to annoy me but now i dont correct them.

today i was on omegle and i spoke as an mtf pre hrt. every time someone asked me why i was happy and i said "im starting hrt soon!" o felt a kind of genuine happiness i havent felt in a long time. i didnt feel anxious and i didn't find it funny. it was comforting and reassuring.

i am scared that i am acting with irrationality and that ill regre what i do. i dont know what to do...