Not many people will see it but I’m hitting a breaking point. I need an outlet.

I’ve had the discussions with my therapists and we’ve nailed down the gender dysphoria. (Like I didn’t already know).

I can’t sleep, I’m not eating. I don’t know where to begin. I want to come out but the people I’m closest too, I don’t know how they’ll react.

I fear being left alone for wanting to be me, and making new friends is easier said than done in your mid twenties.

On the other end I hate looking in the mirror. I hate my facial and body hair. I went to not so dang masculine but if I even attempt to make changes I get ridicule.

My partner would understand, but would they stay? Who wants to pick up the pieces of a broken person.

I just want to wear what I want to wear. Look how I want to look. Live my life as my true self. It feels so impossible without losing those I love and that probably hurts the most.

I don’t know what to do. I’ve known my whole life something was different but hearing professional help acknowledge that you are, it just hits different. It’s a relief to hear you’re not wired weird, but terrifying to think that if you go about changing your life, you risk losing so much.

I don’t know what to do from here…