Since I came out to my wife, I’ve been trying to be open and honest with her about how I feel, which is extremely difficult for me. I’ve been researching all the aspects of how this affects the people in my life, maybe more than how it affects me. I feel like she has a problem with me doing this, because she has in her head that I’m going away. I told her maybe she’s dealing with ME for a change, not the name she married, or this woman inside. Just ME. I’m trying to bury her back down again, but to be honest, I feel like this guy I’m pretending to be, is bitter, depressed, and really isn’t happy about anything. I drank so much to numb myself last night, and she didn’t like that. She says she wants me to be happy but she’s so afraid of losing me, that even finding support is a threat to her. I was better off hiding this, and just being a gloomy Gus. Maybe she would have eventually accepted that guy, definitely over this woman inside.