I never really felt gender dysphotia, but some time ago some things happend and zi started dressing ul privatly. I dont hate how I look but i I think I'm pretty mid at most. Anyway, for some time now, I've been thinking how nice would it be to be this girl or that girl (just random cute women outside)i Also I think that I would enjoy my looks more as girl. When thinking of relationships I would love to be a lesbian. I also think that being a man, having to do all tough love andEgo ganes it just rh. Now what should I do, does it mean that I'm trans? I'n not sure I want to be, Im scared af like how would it work, ok hrt easy, but like family... Friends. It could destroy me, and Im scared I wouldnt look like I imagined it. I all sounds like some fever dream, but I catch mysf thinking oh I would love to look like this or that girl. What do I do? Am I cooked? Is there any chanc to heal myself?