So I just had a talk with my spouse about me questioning gender, wanting to express how I feel inside...it's actually our 3rd talk in a span of 15 years...I always had difficulty accepting and would end up keeping all of my feelings to myself.

But now that we just talked, I'm not sure how I feel...almost like I'm numb..

I tell myself that I want to start to present myself a certain way, i picked out clothes im interested in buying...but then I ask myself what's the point? Why does it matter so much?

Maybe I'm just tired from all of this internal struggle, that I just don't care as much?

Anyone felt like this when they came out?

Thanks :)