Pic for attention 🤷🏼‍♀️

What even is this pattern? Last weekend I had just an incredibly euphoric day, Ms’d for the first at the drive thru, just really feeling myself.

After that I’ve just been having the hardest time, and really not for any good reason. All I can see in the mirror is the man I used to be, casual “sir’s” sting more than usual, and I start to wonder what I was ever thinking in the first place. “I’ll never be read as female, I should just buy some new men’s clothes and go back to presenting masc while the HRT works for the next couple few years…”. I can’t do my own makeup so the face I get is the face the world gets for 99% of the time, I’m just… ugh…

I didn’t (knowingly) have gender dysphoria before transitioning and now it seems to loom constantly.

I don’t know, I guess I just want some assurance that there’s really a woman in there somewhere. I hate feeling like I’m losing my mind, and just want the sad to stop so I can feel the happy again 😂