For the millionth time it feels like.

I started eating clean again and started over my workouts today. I weigh 195 right now and for me, it's higher than normal... higher than it's been in a long time.

I'm 30 now, and I've been off and on this healthy journey for... almost a decade I think.

Hi, I'm Alex. I've posted before in a few places, but everything got deleted in a massive purge.

I keep riding the fence on transitioning and it's painful. I've been seriously on this back and forth for six years now, and when I think about how far I could have come by now if I would have just made my mind up...

I'm 30, amab, and want to fully transition. I'm tired of waiting, I'm tired of second guessing, of being so afraid of losing everyone, including my child.

I'm also a single parent...

If anyone would like to talk, I would love some company. Reddit chat doesn't work the best it seems but I'm game for talking in a lot of places.

I'm in the DFW too, if that helps.