I wasn't sure what flair to use since it's kind of a mix. I also don't have a diagnosis, so I'm not trying to selfdiagnose, but I just felt like this might be one of the best and only places to post this.

I've been having these tic or spasms (not quite sure exactly which), for a while, but I'm not sure how long. Now, back in 2018, I started an SSRI for my anxiety, and I've now been off of it for a couple months (since August or something). That part is relevant because I am pretty sure I've had the tics or spasms for a while before that (I remember one instance from when I was younger), but I don't quite remember. My mom claims to not remember any instances of me having tics when I was younger, and at first, thought it was probably due to the medication, as one of the possible side affects is seizures and convulsions, so back in March, we went to see a neurologist, and he even said that it was unlikely that it was the medication. He said it could be juvenile myoclonic epilepsy (JME), or anemia, but we couldn't be sure until we did blood work, and EEG, and possibly an MRI. I was supposed to have an EEG and MRI later that month, but then the world went to, well... y'know, and everything shut down, and they never rescheduled it.

Now, before the quarantine and whatnot, it'd mostly be motor tics, and sometimes I could go long periods of time (at most, a couple of days or just a day) without any tics (at least to my knowledge), but recently (within the past couple weeks/months), I've developed vocal tics. I've still got no idea what the cause of it is, and I'm honestly getting quite sick of it, as well as frustrated, because I want to know exactly what it is. They're also happening in public more often, and whenever I try and suppress them either a. they get worse, or b. I begin to feel a sort of disconnect from my body, as if I'm not in complete control (I don't know how to explain it).

Sorry for the long rant, I (again) didn't know where else to post this.