I've always been very masc looking, one of the guys, some people even mistake me for football hooligan lol. And I really enjoy social aspect of it like straight guys are friends with me, no homophobia or feeling wierd etc. However in bed I only enjoy being a bottom, used, manhandled. Becoming feminized also became my forbidden desire and the taboo makes it only stronger. I feel like so much tops and heteroflexable guys are interested in fems/cd's, its almost like being a woman. While the guys interested in my masc persona are usually other bottoms or somewhat verse. The same time being fem / non cis in public is scary as hell for me, and I liked being socially masc. What do you guys think about it?