TLDR; So I was just wondering, does anyone else just finds the idea of bottoming appealing and the actual act of bottoming not very exciting ?

I love watching porn, especially when a close up of a cock going into the ass, I love the idea of another man nutting inside me, fuck I just feel an itch right when I think about it that makes want to take one in me but…

But in reality, I’ve tried bottoming, multiple times(6 times), tried dildos and plugs and my experience is that, at first it’s painful but I eventually get to the part that it just doesn’t hurt anymore but it feels meh, like it’s just a thing stretching me and going in and out but I don’t feel anything especial.

I like that I’m helping my partner cum and all that stuff but it’s not just “magical ”.

P.s: I’m a trans guy, so I don’t have a prostate so maybe that’s it?, also it’s the same thing with my other hole:(