Basically the title. I'm currently at his place right now for a weekend visit (we're living 4 hours away from each other).

Almost four years in already and we have never had anal sex. He's too big, I'm not ready (not comfortable being a bottom), he's not into bottoming either. A lot of thigh-humpings and finger plays. Awesome sex in general.

(reading this again I think I'm too obsessed with the idea of being a bottom, he's just really thick djwidnsj)

He's 44, I'm 21. We just love each other a lot, like a fucking lot. I told him yesterday I want to move in, he said he wanted me to do so too. It's about time. I'm really pumped but really scared of the future. He'll support me unconditionally either way, but I'm scared of discomfort. I'm not sexually submissive in bed, but he does take the dominant part right now. Sometimes sex feels like a fight between two male lions. He always wins the dom game but he always respects my body. It always ends with his fingers inside me as we kiss.

My friends don't like our story (mostly because of the age gap). I think pouring this out on reddit would help. Thanks in advance.