So I recently got out of a really long commitment.. Now that she’s gone I feel like a piece of my soul has left. Like I’ve never been hurt this badly before. Idk whether to just give up or prove to her I wasn’t the terrible person she made me out to be. I’ve tried everything, talking to people, going for walks/runs/drives picking up extra shifts at work, smoking weed, being around people/family, doing my hobbies like sports, video games. Everything that I’ve tried has not been working in sense of distracting me from it. Is it worth hooking myself up to the polygraph? She requested it but left before I could get paid enough for the test. I’m telling you this girl means absolutely everything and then some. Without her in my life in some type of shape or form, I just wanna shoot myself I just can’t get over it I’ve never loved or cared about someone so damn much in my life and I feel like I really never will again. Or should I just shoot myself niw and get it over with?