So I (19f) am really confused. I can go most of the month eating normal, and then at the end of the month (as food starts running out) I will barely eat. And it's not that it's I don't like the food, my favorite food could be here and if its the end of the month I'll still just eat Cheerios and peanut butter. I've never starved, but I have a real fear that I'll eat something then that could be used when we have nothing (it's never happened..). So I won't eat much the last week of the month.

But heres where I get even more confused. When money amd food comes in...I end up gorging myself. Like I'll eat until I'm sick, and I don't understand why. It makes me feel terrible amd gross, which even being overweight I am mostly comfortable with my size.

I just...does anyone know why this might be happening? It's really frustrating amd taking a toll on my mental health.