Okay. So I've been at home since March 15th because of the current situation with Covid-19; and March 15th happens to be the last time I got to hug someone. Now that I'm "home", I feel like shit and don't want anything but a hug; but my family are all mentally abusive pieces of shit, and I choose to stay in my room away from them as much as possible. They've driven my eating disorder to become worse and I want to take up self harming again or just die altogether to get away. I don't like being here. Is there anywhere I can get a hug? I know it's probably a hopeless question; I just want to feel cared about. Words don't do anything for me compared to a hug. . . I regret not asking my nurse if I could get a hug when I had to go for blood tests last week; maybe I could've gotten one . . . Sorry.