I have a 1 year relationship with my boyfriend (M20) and I personally think that sexually exploring before marriage is not an emotional type of cheating.

At first, I thought that it was just a splur of the moment while we're having sex. MFM and FMF made us more horny. We always say afterwards "Pampalibog lang". Not until before we go home from vacation, he asked me "But do you really want to do it?", I answered "It's worth the try. As long as we ain't married yet". And he agreed.

Now, I can't even let go of the thought. It dominated my mind and it's living there rent free.

You see, this is the first time we were open to each other. Before, we make a big deal of everything. But that day, we were so honest. Telling each other's desires and even let go of our experiences with our exes.

Just the idea of him making me imagine that there were two men fucking me, while he's playing with my nipples, what a damn godsent. I feel like a sex-crazy type of a teenage girl and I don't know if this is healthy. There could only be two things, it strengthens us or it ruins us.

It's really amazing and shocking how sex gives us magic. Like I don't even know that that part of the body could send me to heaven.

Let me have your thoughts please. Should I go through with it?