Him: You just want attention. Her: I’m not okay. Im depressed I don’t feel like you ever listen to me anymore. Him: You know what your not f**cking depressed, you’re delusional and crazy. I’m done I can’t help it if you’re insecure she’s just a friend. We haven’t had sex in years! Her: You told me you months ago after I seen y’all texting inappropriately reminiscing about how good your sex was even tho she’s married and refuses to speak to me when I reach out that you chose me. I broke down and was completely heartbroken in tears and I tried to call a Uber home. You looked me in my eyes and I believed you. You blocked her and you told me You loved me and if you had to choose you chose me. That you didn’t realize how much it bothered me that you have been sleeping on and off with this woman and emotionally leading her on knowing you had no interest in her in the slightest only when you push me away and you use the excuse that ‘Your single’ so that’s what excuses you.

But I should’ve left that night. I stayed and gave you the benefit of the doubt. And after the prostitute. And after the drug dealer you had been screwing the whole 8 months we were together. And the purposefully started fights so you could run to him. And he could feed you.

But when you were at your lowest , I held you and I stayed. When you were broke, everyone else vanished, I remained. When you were sad, I pulled up. When you cried I held you and said you were going to be okay. When you lost faith I told you no matter what all that mattered was that I believed in you and you believed in yourself.

Now you pushed me away again it’s the 7th break up. But I’m breaking and fading because I put in my all and I worked hard on us. And he won’t even respond. He found something new and shiny. But this is what he does. In a month when I’m starting to heal and move on he will reach out to remind my heart of his existence because there’s nothing around him.

And only when his life is quiet and the money is gone, when his sadness comes back, he unblocks you with an excuse and you will take full responsibility for his actions. And promise to be better. Cuz it’s your fault. It’s always your fault. But you can’t get over him. You will hold yourself back from good men. Because when he returns no matter how long you need to be available. And before you know it. You’ve changed calendars countless times. You’re unhappy. You sleep with regrets. You’ll look at him filled with love and disappointment but mostly you’ll be disgusted because…..You should have called that uber…You should’ve went for that promotion in another state … You should’ve left when he got liquored up the first time on the first date because he would shake without a shot….You should’ve loved yourself