I'm so frustrated. I found out about Ketamine about two months ago and my family helped me with pay for the 8 sessions through BetterUCare and I felt so good. I could talk to people again, I was making healthy lifestyle changes, and for the first time in 14 years I wasn't telling myself "I don't want to do this anymore". I finished my last session this past Sunday. Wednesday the hurricane hit. I live in SWFL. It's been... rough. We were luckier than most but I've been on edge. My part of the world is still in shambles. I thought I was handling it. I knew that I was facing trauma but I still felt in control. Until the power went out again tonight. I panicked. I don't know why. I didn't panic when it went off during the storm. I didn't panic when the barrage of tornado warnings were going off or when it sounded like a tree fell on my house. But tonight I panicked. And I felt small again. I found myself saying "I don't want to do this anymore" again. And I just feel robbed because I can't afford to just shell out another $400 for another 4 sessions nevermind the $800 for another 8. Not now. Not with all the repairs. Not with all the destruction. This treatment saved my life and this storm has me spiraling and I just don't have anyone I can really tell about this. So I'm posting here. At 4 am. Angry and frustrated and lost. I really hate hurricanes.