been on ketamine lozenges for a few months. my anxiety is still a big problem and the sessions don’t actually directly make me feel better, so I’ve gotten into the habit of rationing it to take nips of it all day. i haven’t been taking larger doses lately because it’s been seriously affecting me. might be making my dissociation worse. it’s some sort of spiritual problem that therapists won’t understand. i have terrible anxiety still and i’m worried taking 25 or 50 or so mg a few times a day is abusive. i have no other meds or support and can’t even get a therapist so i don’t know what else to do. i have CPTSD, OCD, MDD, ADHD. i’m sure if i told a therapist my story they’d also call me delusional or psychotic. it’s happened before.