I made a post a few days ago about getting the message “you have reached the end “ in my last ketamine session. Yesterday, I had forgotten 2 important things in my schedule. I’ve lived in such a state of hyper vigilant anxiety, that it is really unlike me to forget anything. That night, I was sitting in my sauna, just staring at a tree. I realized I had no “background noise “ happening in my head. There was no ruminating about all the things I needed to do to get ready for tomorrow, and no self hate talk about what a failure I was for forgetting these 2 things I had forgotten. It was the first time ever in my life that I was just being! It was absolutely incredible to have all that background static removed from my nervous system. It’s very awkward, as I now have to learn how to navigate life without the hyper vigilance, but what an amazing gift that ketamine therapy has given me! It took 2 hard, long years to get here, but I couldn’t have ever imagined I could actually get here! Just wow!