So okay after my last fred of being all fuck shit and history and never being happy. Tonight I bit the proverbial bullet and did what I have wanted to do for a while.

I have agreed a damn no strings attached date (I have my problems and damn I aint going to talk about what she has gone through of late but things be there sort of thing) in a couple of weeks time, to something she hasnt been to and ive not been to in years in an afternoon (keeping things slow) it makes me damn happier than I have been in a long time, its sad but it does as I have not done the dating thing in a long time and this is not the usual dinner/movie/drinks sort of thing.

The fact I have a job and can do stuff empowered me and fuck it, like I said its been a long time and it should be fun. I expect nowt neither does she, who knows what will happen.

Im up for work in six hours but damn for once in a damn long time im happy, and I smoked a damn good cigar tonight that I need to find a box of.

Just thought I would share happiness after last weeks shite.