My co-teacher was so toxic. She definitely was more experienced and would throw it in my face that I am not creative, so I should have been a math teacher not English teacher. Every time there was a fight between kids, she would blame it on me saying why wasn’t I careful enough to stop it. I know it’s not good to blame others but I feel like I wouldn’t have dealt with such low confidence and anxiety if I had a better co teacher during my first year.

She took every chance to make me feel dumb. Once we were watching a movie related to the book we were reading about people dying due to a flu, and this girl was crying because it reminded her of her grandpa who died during covid. Mind you, I didn’t know why she was crying at that time. Later my co-teacher said the girl can’t read the book, and I just asked why, and she just went all, “Can’t you use your common sense for once?”

I never went to leadership, because I know I wouldn’t get the help as she was the “better” teacher, The school needs the experienced teacher not me, And I needed to be there to complete my grad school requirements. Once, she stopped my lesson mid way infront of the kids saying she doesn’t like it and started teaching on her own. Even the kids asked me after class why I let her treat me this way