New Starbucks TL here.

It's been a really rough transition for me coming from another department in the store. I was really confident going in because I've been a manager for over 10 years and I felt like I did a great job in my last department.

I'm constantly so hard on myself and even though my last DM visit went really well, yesterday was extremely rough on me. The stress has gotten to me.

A mix of life issues like being thrown out of my apartment and now facing homelessness on the 1st of June along with health issues and ofcourse stress with work. I over ordered a bunch of things and now I have no place to put anything. I keep messing up little things like recipes for making certain things and although these things may seem small I just expect more out of myself than this. I constantly feel like I'm letting my baristas down and I'm trying my absolute hardest. Especially the two really experienced baristas that I have. I never take breaks and I'm constantly on my hands and knees trying to make our Starbucks the best that it can be and a great place where my Baristas can come in and not feel miserable at work.

I cried twice yesterday at work. Nobody saw because I did it in private and after each time I went back out on the floor like everything was okay because as a leader you can't let your team see you weak. You have to set the example and set the tone and sometimes thats the hardest part. I'm so close to breaking down but at the same time I know that it's just not an option for me.

Now when I go back to work Monday I'll continue to be strong for myself and for my team. I just wanted to vent and let anyone know who sees this some managers really do care and we work our asses off for you. Despite what's going on in our lives or at work with us.

Love you all. Keep working hard and staying positive out there.