I'm so tired. I'm a single mom. I relocated to Portland a year ago. I work a stressful job for just enough money to live okay and save a little living in my parents house. I go to school part time. I changed my major to IT to make a decent wage. I'm tired. I got out of an abusive marriage. Went home in time to see my mom die of cancer. Picked myself up, lost. Trying again. No friends yet. Had a flaking with a guy almost a year ago. We were talking about booking up again but I blew it. He's not even talking to me now. In the process figured out I'm into s&m so now I know why I'm not satisfied with normal partners. It's been 4 years of hard work and times. I'm not going to make it. I'm too alone. Too tired. My degree is several years out. We don't have enough to live on our own. I have no space. I'm dying inside. It's too much.