Hoping someone here might have some insight, or maybe even just tell me to get a fuckin' grip and just do the thing..!

I've been seeing a therapist for a few weeks now, I know that's not a very long time in the years and years that people do therapy, but I think I'm more of a get shit over with person if I'm trying to deal with something. I do not envision myself still doing this for any length of time.

There is something weighing on my mind a lot, but I don't know how to bring it up. Talking about it seems either too much or too little, like it's simultaneously a very bad thing but not bad enough. As a guide, my therapist keeps trying to tell me some of the stuff I've gone through is genuine abuse but I struggle to see it as that, it's just something that happened. I'm not very good at this at all!

I just don't know what words to use. I know that sounds a bit odd, they're just words. But I genuinely don't know how to talk about this. I don't know how to bring this up and it's not somewhere conversation would ever naturally flow to (CSA). But I think about it a lot so I should probably bring it up... How do people do this?