I've been in therapy for maybe 3 years and things are progressing. I'm much better than when I started and I've learnt alot of things to cope and work on healing but some things are still hard. Last semester while in session I found out some things about myself and going home by myself with that information to digest was difficult and overwhelming. I have no one in my life to talk to about these kinds of things (I'm lacking in the friend/support department) and I felt very alone and felt myself spiralling as more things came to light. In addition to some things going on at home, being sick for a while and dealing with school, needless to say, I had a few breakdowns. My country has free healthcare and with that there's also things for dealing with mental health kind of. While that's nice, that meant that I'd see my therapist once every two or three months. During this particular time the gap between my sessions was 3 months. I couldn't take it anymore and really needed someone to talk to so I signed up for campus counselling services. The timing got messed up due to some bad weather and I was rescheduled for this year.

In that time I saw my therapist again and while in session I briefly mentioned reaching out to the counselor and he looked somewhat intrigued? He was wearing a face mask so I couldn't fully read his expression. He asked if I'd go to see her and I said that I most likely wouldn't (which was the truth) and he said okay, as long as I know what's best for me. I saw her this week and the session went very well. Her demeanor was more casual and I felt more at ease? She was more reactive with her expressions and didn't speak with a 'professional' voice, something my therapist did every now and then when he's explaining stuff that made me feel awkward. With her, I could see future sessions going in a direction that I haven't gone with my therapist which was learning and developing my emotions. With my therapist we'd discuss more family issues and touch on the emotional aspect of things but with only an hour per session and months until the next one, some things just don't pick back up or I'd have to recap alot which takes time. Now I have two sessions set for next month, first with my therapist and a couple weeks later would be the counselor. It just somehow happened that way. This feels wrong but it's so hard going so long with no one to talk to or get help from. Is this okay?