This all seems so pointless at times. For some background I am pretty deep into this lifestyle. I've got clothes, toys, a sissy dating app profile and I've even got bookmarks of porn on my laptop for easy access.

I want to explore my sexuality. This part of me was there even before the porn and all that. I might have been bi the whole time idk. But at the end of the day I feel so disconnected with this stuff and it feels unrealistic. I kinda want to hook up with a guy, another sissy or a Dom female and I kinda just don't care and want to do anything else with my life.

Idk why I wrote this but I guess I'm just putting my feelings into words. Hope anyone finds some space to sit back and really think about their actions in relation to this. A friendly reminder to be kind to yourself, none of this is easy to quit or change.

Anyways, best of luck with whatever your dealing with reader. If anyone wants to chat feel free to DM me