I want to know why others struggle with this addiction. Why is this so hard for us to give up and move forward with our lives? Quitting sissy porn and porn all together really shouldn't be that hard. But I've struggled for over two years and have never got atleast one month clean. I've gotten a few 20 days where I felt confident, strong and really happy then I crash into thinking I need to buy clothes and toys and meet guys.

Personally, I have trauma and chronic pain issues that this addiction feeds on. Many times I don't feel confident in my body, I feel inferior to women, I feel like I'd be a cute lil femboy for men and find love/validation there. I don't want to feel degraded and be a cuck. The positive spin this stuff tries to pull is the lure for me. The ability to escape the pain of my reality is a huge reason I engage in this.

So why do you struggle with this? At the very least I hope this post gave someone some room to think about why. I really appreciate this sub existing lol