Last night I had a small victory. I was really high on two edibles and got all dressed up. I locked myself up and just laid there on the couch watching tv for a bit. I'm trying to let these urges to dress and pretend to just be there without porn. I know if I cut out the porn then this problem will go away. Last night was a perfect example of this. I got some urges to dress up, so I did then I got urges to watch some porn and do all the things but I didn't. I fought them and eventually I felt really stupid for being all dressed up and in a damn cock cage. I looked myself in the mirror and felt so silly for this.

So I undressed, took a shower and continued my night porn free. A small victory for me. Hope this motivated anyone-cut out the porn and see what happens.