I have never found men attractive but all of sudden I do now. I fantasize about being with guys and that has never happened before. I even downloaded tinder and uploaded photos of me dressed as a girl and have never seen so many matches. And have contemplated hooking up with some of these guys. This whole thing is giving me a huge self esteem boost which I will admit I lack as male. And getting all this instant validation fills the void.

I have dressed up my entire life but have never been ok about it. How do I get out of this? it has a strong grip on me. I can’t even focus on work on how much I am looking for ways to feminize myself. I keep ordering new things too. So it’s also costing me money.

For some reason I am putting all this energy into this but can’t seem to shake it off and put that energy into something more productive no matter how hard I try. What steps do you recommend I take to be ok with the void I have and to start leading a more normal life. Thanks