Hell everyone, hope everyone is doing well with their recovery. I've been struggling recently however I decided to journal on it today and finally decided to be open and honest with myself about why this particular kind of porn has a hold on me. I realized that if the ultimate goal of the hypnos and everything else is to get you to become a woman, then I would ultimately have to commit to that right? So I asked myself if that aligns with my values and after considering it by laying out the pros and cons of either becoming a woman or stay me and beating this addiction, I realized it's not worth it.

I know, sounds corny. But I couldn't even find any "good" or "positive" pros for becoming a woman. I'm not trying to belittle women either because a lot of what I believe their role in society to be is not what sissy porn tries to teach us and that alone plays a huge role in my choice.

Here are my notes from my journal

The number one reason I can not become a woman( or sissy girl) is that it would greatly diminish my chances of having a family. I would be coming from a relationship solely based on sex. I would see myself and would be seen as nothing more than a sex object. Real intimacy would be hard to find and when I get old and gross that foundation of sex in the relationship will crumble.

So yeah the hardest thing for me to wrap my head around this whole thing is that it would be much harder to have the family, the life, and the mindset that I truly want. Of course, I left out my other reasons but you get the idea. Dear reader, if this helped in any way I thank you for reading, and good luck on your journey.