i lose all desire, all thoughts to be fem once i've cum to tg/sissy porn. but when i have sex with a woman, i have never felt regret or revulsion for what i just did, apart from the one time i had sex with a woman i was not attracted to.

i had strapon sex with a trans man who dommed me while i was dressed up. whenever i jacked off while he fucked me or while i was sucking him, soon as i came i was just not in the mood to be with him after that.

am i feeling shame for having fem/sissy thoughts? my last therapist said that it might be. but i don't think it is.....i think it's porn and me being horny all the time, and me channeling this horniness onto things that i deep down don't truly want.