I did nofap for over a week, after getting tired of tg and sissy porn (same story every few years). during that time i didn't just stop porn i also stopped going on lgbt dating sites and having convos with guys about what we would do if we were together. i became more and more conversational with women online and on dating sites instead. every now and again non-hetero/sissy thoughts popped up in my head but they were rare.

i went back to the lgbt dating sites i was on before because of my desire to actually live out some of the fantasies i have, but i had no intention of fapping when i went back on them, just to reply to guys....it was stupid of me to think this because i always end up fapping, and that's what i did. But as usual as soon as i came i was put off by my what i was watching. i think some people are trans, femme, or even just a sissy while some men's minds have been warped by excessive porn and issues during upbringing. i think i'm in the latter camp.

a few months ago i fell in love HARD, with a woman of course. during that time i stopped all porn and all masturbation, all i wanted was her. my dick was getting bigger and throbbing like i know it can. but then me and her didn't work out and i went back to humping my pillow while semi-erect as i watched trans or sissy porn.

i'm no longer afraid of being femme. i've been with a cis-man and a trans man, and both times were meh. they were hot to think about after, because i lived out the kinky taboo desires i've been avoiding for years, but the act itself was genuinely meh. i plan to keep living out the fantasies i have, in the hopes that i will be able to realise it's not for me and move on......or maybe i'll realise i'm actually into it!! but i don't think i will.....everything seems more appealing in porn.