you know for the longest time i looked for help on here and i rarely got it. i almost never got any real help from anyone on here. but if anyone out there actually needs help, here is one thing i hope you take in mind.

i think one of the biggest things we need to realize and understand is that we alone have the power to do as we wish. so far i have not relapsed because i got that feeling of control in my life back, one day i just woke up and realized that i have power over my own life. and i will be what i chose to be and not what they want me to be. I'm just a straight guy who has a few kinks here and there and nothing else, that's what I've always been and that is what i always will be, and i will never be something I'm not.

i am hopefully never touching anything and everything that has anything to do with sissy hypno and honestly my life is better off without cuz it has ruined my life and has made me miserable for years, i became an alcoholic, and i tried to kill myself at least 5 times because of it.

but a week or two ago i got real help and found good people from other places, and they helped me realize that i am not worthless and i have power over my own life. they sort of helped me realize that i can be whatever i actually want to be and to never let anyone or anything forces things that i hate on me.

so i'm going to try as hard as possible to continue a free life, and do the things i actually want to do with my life. i will be praying and hoping to the one's that are truly suffering. i hope that my words help you in some way, and i wish you the best, you can get past this, do not let this own you.