I had a TBI a year and a half ago. Since then I've gone through a ton of therapy and spent a fortune on medical bills. I'm on a lot of meds to help with my mood. But recently I've had complaints at work related to what I'd describe as personality changes. My patience and ability to endure bullshit is much less than before the TBI. I got written up recently and I just lost it. I'm a grown man and I was sobbing in my car. So depressed. I went to a therapist because I really needed to talk to someone and I sobbed like a child to her. My doc prescribed ambilufy and I quit that after two days. My therapist warned against it and I see why. I was a zombie at only a half dose of 1mg. I also take wellbutrin and buspar for anxiety. Panic. I had migraines, but got botox and that helped a ton. Have neck pain and get nerve block injections for that. I'm just a mess.

But I've been at my job for 26 years and can't lose it. I've always had great reviews and make nice money. But seriously, this could affect my job. I have some colleagues who I feel have been just waiting for me to slip up somehow and now they have their moment to complain.

Honestly, I have a lawyer for the negligent act that caused the injuries, but I never imagined that my career could be impacted. I'm just hollow inside. I love my job.

I just need some feedback.