I fell off my skateboard and fractured my skull which resulted with an air pocket in my brain, on the verge of brain surgery back in 2016. Not to mention I played lacrosse throughout hs and suffered from 3 concussions. I haven’t been the same since. I was in college back then and this happened right before finals of the spring semester. I returned back the fall of 2017 and school was never the same for me and life in general. Not in a way where I couldn’t function but I haven’t been operating on the same cylinders since then I feel. I started struggling in school, my gpa dropped from a 3.75 to a 2.3, I couldn’t focus on a single task for more than a few minutes. I am now super indecisive and have heighten sense of anxiety all the time and my self image went down hill. I’m super sensitive now, not that there’s something wrong with people who naturally are, but to the point where I’ve completely cut friends out of my life, even friends who came home from college to visit me in the hospital for no reason other than just normal friendly ball busting, where I use to never cared just laughed and dished it back all in brotherly fun. It’s been over 7 years and I miss how I was before the accident. I truly believe if it never happened my life would be completely different now. I think I would’ve continued to pursue a bachelors after my associates and being doing a completely different line of work. Over the years it started to get a little better but I’d have “episodes” ( I use that term lightly ) where I don’t know who I am anymore and what I’ve become. I was doing good for a little bit until I suffered a concussion at work 2 weeks ago and now I’m back in a shitty mental state. My first week back I would just come home from work and just lay in my bed in silence till dinner then go to sleep. All I want in life now is to return to my former self. I liked him a lot better.