I dont know how many still here had seen or commented on some of my prior posts (link below). Basically i started back several years ago when my wife approached me with the confession that her fantasy was to be shared/share. She wants to go all the way to full couple swaps but really desired to start with a mfm threesome. At first it was a hard no from me out of my own fears and insecurities. The jealosy and fear i felt was palpable the minute she said it. We did a ton (years worth) of talking about it. I told her my fears...not thst shed leave me but thst she would enjoy him more, or that she wouldnt feel the same about me after, or that sex with me slone wouldnt excite her as much....tons of things. She was patient. I did a lot of talking to you fine folks, to her, reading, etc. I finally started to come around to the idea and....flash forward to last night......we had a mfm threesome! It's still very fresh and very raw as far as my emotions so im just looking to spill them out and hope to gain any insight. (Yes I've already began to share with her obviously). So........... We had agreed on the guy we knew and trusted. Someone experienced with couples and all felt comfortable with. We met at his place, relaxed, and played some strip poker and wife "lost" 😉. I took her to the room alone and started things and we checked in and when we were ready called for him to join. It was all a blur. Luckily lots of pics and video but needless to say it was her in the middle of us 2 guys that were extremely turned on by her and just aiming to pleae her. Fucking, licking, kissing, grabbing. It was crazy.

   My very raw and semi-unorganized thoughts.....

From the positive side, it was fun. Seeing her enjoy herself in that way was very arousing and seeing how much he enjoyed my wife was great as well. She loved every minute of it (by her own admission). Seeing different angles and views was very sexy and turned me on. Overall a positive experience. The "negative" side....just being knee jerk honest...i struggled a bit in the moment and still afterwards in a way. He was more well endowed than me. We knew that beforehand and wife assured size was nothing which im not completely disagreeing with, however,.....it was very obvious it made an impact. No pun intended. Seeing her give him oral and whatnot wasnt a big deal. It was hot. But when he put it inside her.....huge reaction. Load moans, eyes rolled back, the works. And , as is the objective, she had an orgasm. Which was hot...but also ive not seen her cum like that for me if im honest. It was loud, it was enthusiastic, all if it. She LOVED it. Even after we kept going she kept moaning and commenting on how incredible it felt. I was glad but also felt like.....you dont do that with me so how am i ever supposed to stack back up to that now. Again these are raw things i felt/feel and am sorting them out. Also....after awhile i was unable to contain myself and i came. Inside her. Felt as amazing as ever and afterwards he asked if he could finish as well. I allowed him inside her and he began as i watched and again....her moans were in a next level. It lasted another minute or two and he pulled out and came on her stomach as she moaned very enthusiastically. It was hot but also a quick flash of insecurity and inadequacy as she laid there, me at her head, him pulled out between her legs, as she was moaning and saying how incredible she felt, as she is covered in his cum alone (visibly). I was happy, and also at the same time felt afraid, or worried, or threatened, or something. Im not sure. Just felt like overall she enjoyed him way more than me in a sexual pleasure standpoint. And thats just me being honest. Im ok, we are good, im not upset, and i DID have fun overall. It was hot. Im just processing.

I shared this all with her. She had a pretty cut and dry view of it. She said she appreciated my honesty and saw how i might feel intimidated but that i shouldnt. She assured me she loved me and felt perhaps more attracted to me being confident enough to do that. She did slighlty try to skirt the "him being bigger and feeling better" thing lol. She did say he wasnt me and was new and yes he felt good but ultimately she loved me and adding him in was akin to adding a great toy (although obviously we respect him more thsn that). Shecsaid it was all extremely hot to her and she loved every minute of it. He also did message to thank us and assured us he had a great time. He messaged me to check in to see if i was ok and thanked me and encouraged me to just be really open with her and to let him know if i needed to talk.

Overall it was great. Im torn looking at the pics and thinking about it. Half extremely horny and half unsure how im feeling. We havent got to have sex again yet as we got home very late last night and she worked very early which admittedly was poor planning on our part. Im nervous yo have sex again as im wrinting this. Wondering how she will feel, how she will like it, if itll be good for her...im just nervous. I know itll just take time. I appreciate all the feedback. Please go easy on me. Im new and this is my unrefined, raw, feedback. Itll take me tome to really process. But i appreciate any wisdom. Thank you all for being great. 

TL;DR - had our first mfm threesome. Lived it and also dealing with a lot of emotions

Last post about it....https://www.reddit.com/r/Swingers/comments/qgzhxt/id_love_some_feedback_from_ladies_or_gents/?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share

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UPDATE: We had not had sex after the threesome alone that first day and a half due our conflicting work schedules and wanting more than a 5 min quickie (i need some intimate time). Wife had an unexpected medical complication from a prior surgery and had to have a procedure done. Shes ok but is on a strick zero sex for at least 2 weeks order from the doc. Now we have to wait. I played it cool but admit im absolutely devasted inside. Just knowing the last person inside her and making her cum wasnt me and wont be for weeks. Hit harder than i thought. Ill update as things change. I appreciate the help.