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First things first: I fucked up. Nothing my wife did was wrong, misleading, cruel, etc. (a couple of pm's were eluding to my wife giving me the wrong signals).

Second: I was the one who moved myself out to the RV for a couple of nights.

Third: Did I mention I fucked up?

The no condom thing: No excuses were given. When I told my wife it just felt natural, it did. That wasn't intentional. I really did just sort of, happen. Was it wrong? Abso-fuckingly-lutely. My punishment for this is I have to wait to a few weeks (month?) until I am tested for STI's and await the results. Wife demanded a "full body probe". I agree 100%.

Not introducing my ex: This just hurts. I lied. I was deceitful. I hurt her. She felt hurt but I don't think it hurts her as much as it hurts me. I realize that sounds like a cop-out but that's the truth. She's made comments all week of the punishments I am going to get but she always ends them with a grin on her face. I wish there was something she could do to get back at me. Reality is that there isn't. I feel like shit about it. I will likely always feel like shit about this.

Best fuck ever: I am always honest and open with my wife. If someone gives better head, looks better, fucks better, etc., I am open about it. I ask and expect the same from her. I think it was someone here that once said something about how we cannot change the physical but we can change everything else. When I said she(ex) was a better fuck, she is. While my timing to tell her(wife) this was severely off, by the next day she wasn't hurt by this. She came back to asking how she can improve. We talked and I explained what made her(ex) better and my wife now has another perspective. And for the record, she told me how he(ex's husband) was better than me; her timing was a little better tho. We were both ready to put our newly earned challenges to the test but seeing as how I'm in timeout until the testing is done, maybe she can call up a SM to help her.

So, where are we now? Healed. I'd say that's where we are. She appears to have blown it all off. I feel like shit, and will for sometime, hopefully. In the meantime, I will be holding my own.