Over the course of a year ish, ive been to over a dozen parties, meet ups, even a vacation, and I either struggle with the dynamics or lack of attraction to the point where I’m considering giving up. I’d prefer to engage with a male partner I feel safe with, but he does not want to share me, but he wants to sleep with someone else. That’s not benefiting me equally so I’m not very interested. He realizes it’s hypocritical, but it is what it is. The only bars and clubs I’ve gone to the people seem hungry and as I have been alone, that was not a great feeling for me. I’ve tried Feeld and have mostly found married men, abusers masquerading as Doms, or looking for a third to fulfill a fantasy. None of these interest me. Not sure what else to do and looking for feedback.