Ok so I’ve been in the lifestyle for a couple of years. For the first time in my life I couldn’t get hard while swinging with another couple. I have never felt like more of a failure in my life than I did in that moment. Not only did I fail to get hard, I didn’t want to ruin the night for everyone so I continued with oral while the other dude fucked my partner. How do live with myself after knowing I failed to get hard and pretty much got cucked like a some sort weak pathetic man? Like how can I still look at myself as a man when another man fucked my girl and I couldn’t get hard to fuck his. I have never felt so pathetic. I’ve been so depressed about it. I know I’m done with the lifestyle after this but how do I live with myself after failing as a man?