I don't know exactly where to start. But fast forward we are married, in our twenties, children, born and raised in Europe AND muslim. The last one or two years I kinda developed the fantasy of being watched and watch while having intercourse. And it's heavily contradicting my religion. I told her about my fantasy with the note, that I couldn't participate in such things because of my jealousy and she told me, that she doesn't have such a fantasy. I ended the topic by saying that neither I had but it came in my alte twenties and it could also happen to her. But lately I'm thinking a lot about this and somehow I want to get rid of it because I know it won't happen to 99,99%. It's kind of a struggle to think about it that much.

Is there anyone with a similar situation or a good advice which would suit my situation?