So a few years ago my bf brought up to me the idea of possibly wanting to see me with another man. It brought out thoughts in us we never had like me possibly with another girl as well. We discussed these fantasies for awhile and really were curious but I was super hesitant. I still have my hesitations and that’s why I’m posting here. We recently started playing around with it for real now. We downloaded a few apps and set up profiles and we also made some profiles on sites online. We have messaged others and have really enjoyed that but there’s times I feel weird as it isn’t my boyfriend and this is all new to me.

We have visited one of the local swinger clubs a few times. What’s crazy is we are usually the youngest people on there. We both don’t mind since we both like older adults and actually enjoy conversation with them. My boyfriend enjoys me dressing very sexy and I’m okay with that but there’s points I’m still hesitant and shaky with it. Like I’m technically in a club with people around and I’m dressed all sexy and showing off. Then there’s conversation and flirting. I enjoy flirting but it’s so weird when it’s with other people other than my boyfriend. He always tells me it’s okay but always just hesitant about it. The dancing as well is pretty crazy and you dance with people that you don’t really know. I grinded on a few people and my boyfriend loved it which makes me happy and I really did enjoy it but still it’s different and new! As for touching it’s crazy when you’re dressed all sexy the looks, compliments, and touches you receive. I’ve had people fully with my consent feel my thighs or other parts of me. It’s hot don’t get me wrong but funny that there’s other people around just hanging out.

You also see a lot of stuff like people flirting, dancing, making out, and playing. So far my boyfriend and I have done same room stuff with others and he’s let me play with a few guys. I get super nervous and shaky right before hand. Like extremely nervous I don’t know if I feel like I’m going to get in trouble lmao.

It has been a good experience so far and I know I’m new and learning but just trying to get more comfortable. My boyfriend is doing everything he can to help and I love him for that! Anyone else ever experience this or anything you want to talk to me about feel free to comment or message?!