So, my partner and myself have been in the LS lifestyle for about two years. We love each other and are fully committed to one another. We have communicated after we have had meetups with others and I believe the things she says and had told me when we breakdown the meetup.

Last week while on a trip to philly, we were able to meetup with a guy our age. He was attractive and checked all the boxes for her. For the first time ever, the guy was hung. Like...8.5 to 9" and very thick. I was jealous of him as I have wanted her to be able to experience a ;larger guy than me (I'm 7.5"). I'm not saying she's a size queen but she can definitely take a lot of dick. She loves DVP and that part was exciting but the part I'm trying to process is when it was just the two of them. He was on top of her and taking her to task. The sounds that were coming out of her was definitely different than what I typically hear. The look on her face also told a story of excitement, fulfillment and pleasure. I love seeing her receive pleasure.... I do but seeing this hit me somewhere deep. It's hard to explain. Maybe it was the newness. Maybe it was the 9" of coke can fucking her. We have had a few other MFM experiences that were very underwhelming . Guys cumming to fast, not staying hard or just not big enough for great please. Never before did she react as she did last week.

Am I over thinking this? Should I stop torturing myself and just let it be a very pleasurable experience for her or should I be concerned that she has now gotten something that was previously missing in a larger size?

I would love to hear your thoughts.