We’re in a mainly hot wife scenario. My wife plays and one of our deals is if she plays I am to know about it. I work away so a lot of times I’m not home but she still plays while I’m home. Well there have been times I’ve asked her if she’s played without telling me while we are having sex and she’s admitted to it saying yes Friday that’s why I wouldn’t fuck you because I knew you’d be mad at me for not telling you. At the time it hadnt really gotten to me but when I think about it later it bugs me. Well yesterday when turning off her alarm in the kitchen in the mornin I saw that her and one of her guys were texting. I didn’t read her messages because I don’t snoop. I didn’t bring it up figured she’d tell me if something was gonna happen. I didn’t read her messages because I don’t do that. Well yesterday she wouldn’t have sex with me and it kind of had me in a weird deal in my head. She kept asking me what was wrong that I was being weird and it’s messed up that I get mad when she won’t sleep with me. I told her I don’t mind her not being in the mood and I was fine. She was very persistent in me telling her what was up so I said did you have sex today. She got very defensive and said no I was being crazy. I dropped it and she brought it up for the next 2 hours that I was being crazy and that when she told me about Friday she made it up because she thought i liked it. I said I don’t like it. She got mad said I don’t know what you want from me and just rolled over pissy. A few days ago she said the only reason she wouldn’t be with me is if I ever cheated on her. Idk I feel like it’s a double standard that I tell her everything I’ve ever done or she’s been there (only 3 times) and she’s admitted more than the one time in the first part of post playing with others without telling me. I’ve told her I felt like that would be cheating if she hid things from me. Am I crazy to feel this way